8/16/15 – They Are Her Books

So far the weekend went well. I picked the kids up on Friday and dropped them off today without issue. The hard part was listening to my kids tell me the story of church group a couple of weeks ago. 

For lunch I took them to Chick-Fil-A and each gets a kids meal with fruit cup. This time the “prize” are a couple of books. One of the books was what they both got when Hunter picked up Chick-Fil-A for the kids before the church group. 

My daughter starts to spin a yarn about those were moms books not theirs – the ones they got a couple of weeks ago. I don’t really believe it so I question her about it. 

My son tells me that Hunter told them that those were her books because she paid for them, and that if they wanted to read them they had to ask her for them really nice. I’m stunned. 

A couple of small freebies, books, and Hunter has taken control and ownership of them. These are their books, part of their meal and she uses them to control the kids. 

I tell them that since they are two different books that they are both of their books and can read them anytime. The only rule is they have to share. 

Seriously, how are these children going to have a normal childhood with an angry dad over being cheated on, lied to about fake pregnancies, fake suicides, infidelity, and who knows what else with all of Hunters mental illness and their mom is lying, controlling, and manipulative. 

I don’t know how to save them. I haven’t been able to let them go, and this stalemate is killing me. I sit here tonight worrying about kids I can’t help instead of meeting new friends or going out on a date. 

Tomorrow I no longer tolerate this from me. I cannot survive or thrive in a way to make a life available for my children to come home to or for me to enjoy. It’s getting time to stop wallowing in the mire and start building a new life. A new paradigm. A new person that is no longer tolerant of crazy or those that support them. Those that want on this train on sanity can join, but it takes self awareness and a willingness and the effort to change. All others can stay in crazy town. 

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