10/26/15 – She Changed The Notes Again

Not sure when she did it. But over the last month or two she rewrote her notes. At least these are in chronological order. Funny to see that she moved some of the lines about guns into new entries. I guess if it is a good line then your should use it even  it’s not true.

The sad part is I know that part of this comes from fear and embarrassment. The kids aren’t doing well with her. She isn’t having the fantasy live she thought she would have after the divorce. All the money in the world can’t bring her happiness, and she thinks making me the bad guy will make it better.

Even worse I’d i try not to even engage her anymore. I don’t talk to her when she picks up the kids. I just let them cross the street to her when it’s safe. I try not to talk at all to her when I pick up the kids just yes or no. This week was can you drop off Daughter since Son was going to my parents.

When she offdropped her  I didn’t even see her. Just stood in the bathroom and let her say her goodbyes. Funny all those texts about how I am nothing to her after the divorce and she still relies on me to help her.

Like this morning when she texted me to help with Son’s school snack donation. She could have sent it on Friday or Tuesday. Why Monday? To let me know she paid for things, and to be in contact. She does it to try and get under my skin.

The last verse in church yesterday (where she sat a couple rooted in front on Son and I) was Micah 6:8

He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

I listen to this and think how lonely Hunter must be and that I need to find a way to be kind and loving and forgiving and then I read this shit. Probably just more reasons to do those thugs and walk away.

Funny when I was looking for the quote I got 1 Peters 5:6,

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.

I guess I just need to be humble and loving and compassionate but from a protected distance. She is still a scorpion posing as an abandoned kitty cat. She is always dangerous. I can’t tell if it will be worse when she has a boyfriend or not. Will it give her strength to push an agenda or fear that I will blow it up which means more indirect damage.

The worst part means that her family will never be in the same room as me for the kids (brother excluded). She has lied too much to make that work for them.

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