I keep thinking I screwed up my life, and my children’s life by marrying Heidi. She lies, cheats, steals, and destroys everything she touches. She isn’t any different then Joy. I’m sure she is back with her married boyfriend. I’m not getting much invites to 3040 anymore. I guess it’s for the best. I just wish I could find a way to survive.
I’ve been watching a German show on Netflix called Dark. It’s based on the premise that the past, present, and future and linear but circular. That people can move through time, and evil has that advantage. I’m not sure if I like it, but it is interesting. I just need to get my head out of my ass and start applying for jobs.
Soon it will be too late, and I will be out of luck for another year. Another year out of work and I can call it quit. No one cares after that long. You are thrown out of the world and ignored until homeless. All the while watching evil succeed in this world because they are selfish and greedy and care only about themselves. I guess this is my lesson to learn. I guess there is a transition that needs to happen inside me before I starve to death. Then my children will be destroyed to by their mom and everything I loved will be gone.