I know I seem to be watching a lot of horror movies, but the life I had is a horror show. My life seems to be spiraling out of control faster than I can hold on. Maybe that is my Father making sure I don’t get used to things. I’ve been thinking a lot about the wine club. I have been treated so poorly by these hypocrites and heathens it’s hard to muster the energy to go. Especially since I have to 50 mile drive and have to buy a couple of bottles of wine to boot.

I know I will be treated poorly again. I’m not sure if this is what my Father wants of me – to minister or just to walk away. I’ve prayed about it, but I have not heard word yet. Hopefully He will let me know before I walk and make a mistake.

I’m sure Joy won’t be there. I know she is telling people not to invite me to things. I see her on FaceBook at events I’m not privy to. I guess 3040 likes to be manipulated by a histrionic. She sleeps around and does not honor my Father with adultery, fornication, lies and deception.

She constantly controls and manipulate them like a puppet master. I know she must be miserable to have to do such things. It’s sad the world has these people in them. Like my ex wife who is crating my cat so she doesn’t wake her and her boyfriend up early. I’m sure when she take him to the vet she will euthanize him. She gave a key to the house to her boyfriend, and he comes in at night and leaves after he showers in the morning. I find it hilarious that Heidi doesn’t realize he is using her and cheating on her. I’ve seen it, but she believes in lies like 3040.

Maybe this is my Father’s way of getting me to forgive and move on? I know He is always training me to be better and grow a character more in line with His will. I hope I have the strength to create it for Him.

It’s sad to know the world we live in is so wicked. I guess that’s the way the world has always been. Hopefully I will survive this new endeavor, and that my Father has a plan for me in San Diego. If not, it will be interesting to see where I go.

I’ve emailed the school to see about scholarship funds if I take certain classes. I haven’t heard back yet, but school starts in 9 days so I hope I hear back soon. I need to make decisions about driving and places to stay as well as a hotel for the half marathon I’m scheduled to do the first weekend in June. It starts at 6:15 so staying in San Diego will make life a bit easier. Maybe I will run into Catharine there. Maybe not…you never know.

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