12/23/16 – She Is Trying To Give Up Time With The Kids

Another day, another request to give up her time with the kids. I am getting tired of sacrificing my life for this bitch who abuses my children and ignores them for a hookup with the boyfriend.

What are my children going to be like when they are older? Living a life being unmoved and abused. I know. They will be like me. Always searching outside of myself for love because I never had any for myself. It was never instilled inside of me when I was a kid and it’s difficult to find it there as an adult.

That’s why I married Heidi. She was the first person to make me feel loved. And now my life is devastated for it. 

I can’t spend my life this way. I need to find a way into happiness and the light.