5/13/2019 – She Won’t Pay Me Child Support

As usual, money is more important to her that honesty. She cares about power and money more than anything. The agreement we signed stopped on March15, 2019.

So I stopped seeing the kids. Last night she prevented My daughter from calling. I’m sure the babysitter will let her call tonight. I hope she doesn’t make the babysitter stop my daughter from calling. It’s important that my daughter talk with me. She knows I love her more than her mom. Then again Borderlines don’t love anything. Their abuse is destructive, and she spends all the time away from the kids.

At some point in time she will die and maybe my son. I hope my daughter doesn’t die. I need her for love and support. She may be OCD, and that’s how her Histrionic manifests. I don’t care, I can fix it.

Heidi is a selfish bitch and if she doesn’t pay me the money she owes me I will make an appointment with Robyn and see where it leads. She owes me money and I want it all back – especially the $1.2 million she stole from me for ten years of my life!!!

10/22/17 – Looking for Bunnies

It’s either me and my insanity or I keep seeing Joy in my neighborhood. I saw her running this morning when I was walking with my daughter looking for rabbits. She had her eyes closed as she passed by. The strange part is I though I have seen her several times over the last few weeks here, but with kids that are not hers. Maybe she is a nanny?

Maybe I’m just crazy because I saw her earlier this week and I really need to get moving on the packing.

I got my daughter one-on-one time for a couple of days. So we looked for bunnies this morning and this evening. We saw several of them enjoying breakfast or dinner. My daughter was supposed to go back this afternoon, but she wanted to stay the night. She doesn’t really like her mom, but it’s scary to stand up to an abuser. Especially one that is a lot bigger and meaner than her. That’s why she is 73% in height, and 98% in weight. That’s the problem; when you don’t feel loved you eat your emotions. I know I did. I was 250 three times in my relationship. I’ve been under 200 for almost a 18 months now. I still need to drop the last 20 pounds, but that is something I can work on in Orange County. If I ever get there…